Life Updated

Everyday, we hear too many things sweetly calling our name to pay attention to. I used to be almost immune to these whispers when I was younger. I wouldn't allow myself to fall into a trap that I know ended up with no satisfaction and guarenteed emptiness. Part of me says it is because nothing else was in my view of sight except for the one thing that satisfies, Jesus. 

All of a sudden I got married and I found myself comparing what I looked like, where I lived, what I was doing with my life to people who I had no relation to. "My hair is so limp. Will my skin every clear up? Is this scale broken or something, because there is not way I gained that much weight since High School." I have NEVER EVER had issues with my self-esteem. I found myself browsing through other peoples Instagram for hours which a huge rock of guilt in my stomach. It was/is truly addicting. Trey and I did a social media fast about a month of two ago. I've done many of these before, but each one for different reasons. The first couple of days are fantastic as usual and you actually start to see the world around you. I found out that me comparing myself to others had everything to do with marriage. I thought I needed to prove that I was worthy of being married at such a young age. If I didn't look the part, then I must failing at my marriage. (I know stupid right) I was in a trench where everywhere I looked, there was a distorted mirror of my life. And no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get to the other side where I thought satisfaction was. 

I wish I could say there was a crazy turning point where I told God I was DONE trying and had a crazy emotional breakdown. But there wasn't. Everything lately has been slow, yet steady at the same time. I stay in the trench, but also watch my Father clean up the surroundings. He washes the mirrors, plants trees in the mud and then sits with me. I talk with him then I find myself saying, "Let me just try one more time." And always I slide right back down to the bottom where he is waiting there patiently for me. Sometimes we laugh at the fact that I even tried, but sometimes I cry and he takes me around to those mirrors and shows me the great things about me. 

Some of those mirrors are still distorted in my eyes, but I see changes happening and that's progress. 

Oh, How IT IS FINISHED>

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How deep the Father’s love for US,

How vast beyond all measure,

That He should give His only Son

To make a wretch His treasure.

How great the pain of searing loss -

The Father turns His face away,

As wounds which mar the Chosen One

Bring many sons to glory.

Behold the man upon a cross,

My sin upon His shoulders;

Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice

Call out among the scoffers.

It was my sin that held Him there

Until it was accomplished;

His dying breath has brought me life -

I know that IT IS FINISHED.

I will not boast in anything,

No gifts, no power, no wisdom;

But I will boast in Jesus Christ,

His death and resurrection.

Why should I gain from His reward?

I cannot give an answer;

But this I know with all my heart -

His wounds have paid my ransom

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Words that grab: deep, give, boast, paid.

DEEP: "Long ago the LORD said to Israel: "I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself." -Jeremiah 31:3 (NLT)

GIVE: "God showed how much he loved us by sending his one and only Son into the world so that we 

might have eternal life through him." 1 John 4:9 (NLT)

BOAST: "As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ. Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world's interest in me has also died." -Galatians 6:14 (NLT) 

PAID: "He himself bore our sins" in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; "by his wounds you have been healed." -1 Peter 2:24 (NIV)

May we never lose our wonder, how the Father loves us so.

Who Am I?

Hi, I'm Lexie. I seize opportunities to laugh, dream, create and learn. 

I spend way too much time watching travel diaries on youtube & pinning different ways to style my house on Pinterest. But also spend most of my days in school, working, researching and also trying to be the best wife I can be. 

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This is my husband Trey. We spent most of our teenage years learning from each other about how great our Father truly is, along with others who guided our relationship to live for Him. One night, my freshman year of High School, a kiss transitioned our relationship from acquaintances to being exclusive. We have been inseparable since. 

Together, we choose God first and each other second.

See who is he, to see how I choose this blog to share my real life experiences to prove how God works through his people and chooses to love them unconditionally. 

 

Who is He?

Some of you might be asking, "He? Who is He? And he is still what?"
To answer those questions, allow me to give you a little insight to my life. 

There was a time when I was broken, empty, unsatisfied with life. I lived for myself and what I thought was best for me. I thought there has GOT to be something more to why I was here on this earth. Is there such a thing as purpose? If so, what was my purpose? 

Then I met King Jesus. 
I had been to church my entire life hearing, but never listening, to truth I desperately needed. 
One day, something clicked.
I wish I could tell you what it was that flipped the switch, or even who it was that was speaking at the pulpit one Sunday morning. But I can't. 
I truly fell in love with, what used to be just some figure in the sky, but turned into this real person who I created a friendship with. I talked to him, cried to him, got mad at him when I thought he wasn't listening, and finally realized that it was an everyday process to surrender my life to him. 

Why would anyone do that though?
Who would be special enough to surrender their life to?

Father, Son, Holy Spirit
Otherwise known as God of the universe. 

But still? Why?

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, so that whoever believes in him should not perish but have EVERLASTING life." -John 3:16

Scripture says that the God who created the entire universe, sent his Son to die for everyone who ever lived, lives and will live. He died a horrific death where he was nailed to a cross, to save your life from living in eternal sin. 

That is what this blog is dedicated to. 

I write this blog not just to share my adventures, but to spread truth, encouragement, joy and light to dark places. It will be used as an accountability to myself to be constantly ready to share the love that was so graciously given to me. To do this I must be: prayerful, always in scripture and ready to take on the moments that the Father has put in my path to share his Word. 

I know as I go through life, things will not always be sunshine and unicorns just because I am a Christian. So I plan on documenting not just the happy stuff, but the real and hard stuff that happens in every day life. 

And as I do, I will live knowing that: 
He Is Still Redeeming, 
He Is Still Healing, 
And He Is Still Good.